Guilt making me not work

You know what I feel like right now ? I feel like I might be diving into depression but then I might be confusing depression with guilt.

I know I should be working harder on something, but that thing requires a lot of hard work and I know I can’t work as hard as others are and this is overwhelming me.

This feeling of not being able to work that hard is making me not even work at this thing. The guilt of this is eating me and I think that what I have is depression but it’s mixed with guilt.

I worked so hard before, day and night to get where I’m at but if don’t work hard now then that hard work of mine will go to waste and that breaks me.

You know when you workwd hard on something before and you come to the conclusion that that work wouldn’t matter if you don’t work now.

But I need someone to patch things up for me and no one understands that. I’ve got my family and they’re counting on me, they’ve got certain expectations they expect me to meet.

My family says that we’re here when you need us but I don’t know, I feel like this time they can’t help me and I don’t have anyone who could help me in this.

Honestly this blog is turning into my diary but I enjoy writing and sharing my part of life. That’s why it’s called “Life Blog”.

Regards 💕